Shopping day

Hey'all (:

Today was kinda great (: Love the shopping time @ mangga dua :p haha. I've got a bag, few shirts and jeans.

 Anyway, along the way, i was looking at the side of the road, there's like so many houses, roads and bridges that's unattended. I mean there's like so many mess in here. There's building that was left over by the riots dk how many years ago. If I'm not wrong it was almost 10 years ago & the building was still there. With no one taking care of it and doing business in it.

There's so many big drainage but all of them have black water and super polluted water flowing through it. Since we have so many people and alot of jobless people, why not hire them and make a workforce? why not use the people resources to clean and improve the country, i know it can't be just that simple as saying than doing it but if no one tries to do it or start it, who's gonna start.

 Some of the things that's build here are like half done and half way. What happen to e money tht was suppose to be used on building the things? go to your own pocket. wth! Money can't be eaten if u haven't realise that. If you don't start improving everything and cleaning things, global warming can be faster than you thought.

 i don't know what going through my mind, what happen when i was with you, i was just  really happy. When i was with you, nothing else seems to matter. Even at one point, I don't even care what other people might think. I was just glad to be with you. My friends told me, that he must have been something, cause it made me happier that I  had ever been in the whle 3 years that she known me. Everything that happen between them, I'll never forgets it, it was a nice memory to keep. Even though you may not look at it that way, not anymore. but I'm grateful for everything that you have given me. (: imy&ily. sorry i made u go through the pain.

Sleepover and Food all day

So... Yea tonight I'll be sleeping at my cousin's house. soo quiet and peaceful.
Had a long day today. Filled with different kinda\s of food. :P pfft! Ymmy.
Lunch @ Marche and Dinner @ Soto.. (:
Sweetniblets... i dont even exercise here. LIKE SERIOUSLY. super lazy. Probably once I get to Bali I'll run by the beach in the morning. (: of course i wanna try the horse riding too :D hehhe.
alrighty then can't wait.

imy

Erica

Soo.. Holiday!

Okayy... I'm like watching this indonesian tv show. It's like so sad.

There's so many people that doesn't have a proper house and all. they're like struggling and everything. kay i feel so blessed right now. Shouldn't have complained abt so many stuff and be grateful for what i have. (:

Well my sister is on her way to australia for holiday. Like freaking nice. She have some trip that she joined with her ever lasting best friend - thania. (: Hope they have fun.:D they better take loads of pictures.(: I probably gonna miss her complains hahah :D Hope she finally had some fun, like how I always feel when I kept traveling. I wonder where I'd like to stay in the future. I dont think I wanna stay in Jakarta. I do love the things here & my family is  here. Idk whether I wanna stay in Singapore, although most of my friends now are from there and since i've stayed there, I had so many opportunities and I've found what I wanted to be.(:  There's so many memories there I guess. I've experienced so many thing in singapore. Like practically my teenage life here. It's so freaking amazing. (: and yea I love it! :D

SO anyway.... I've cut my hair... yesterday (: It's short. But probably it's not tht short. whatever hahah :D But yea, I  liked it (:(:

imissu

ERICA (:

This is All i've got.

I'm freaking serious missed the book. I miss my friends. I miss everything that I used to have. I miss you for freaking goodness sake.

Did I said sth stupid? there goes one mistake. Did I bore you with my problems? I'm sorry for being selfish. This is all i've got, This is all that i'm not. It doesn't matter who we are, each one of us have our moments.Why can't I just let it go? This is all the things that doesn't make sense, your expectations, your explanations. It made me all confuse. Every word that you told me, I can't forget it. It just keep running around my head.

When I read the pass msges/ chat log, I wish it hadn't turn out this way.I wish it turned out to be a much better things. I dont know what to do. We stay together was the promise we made. But suddenly it's not so clear when i'm being pulled both ways.It's breaking my heart, it's impossible to choose. What if I don't try , what if i do? I thought u said it was gonna be alright, and it's gonna be easy. I wanna go back. I don't want it to be this way. Not like this.

Performance by AMKSS

Fashion Project!

HEY'ALL !
I'm so totally on for fashion project in order for me to get into NAFA! wooo!
I can let go now (: hehe. just gotta handle the nightmare a little. (: Of course I hope we're still friends & you're not angry at me anymore. Sorry abt what I said. I was reckless. :p so yea.
UHH!
I'm gonna go off 17 Dec. I never thought i'll be so glad leaving this Island for a holiday @ paradise for now (; I need to get away for now(: Ironic i told you not to run away, but I feel like running away right now (:
So anyway yes I'm SORRY! :D Hope you'll forgive me :D I've accepted everything now (: Gonna move on.
NEXT YEAR
I have to be damn discipline man. I cannot have any hw left out or I wont have time to do them. :D so yea :D That's all for now (:
BUH-BYE. ;D

Final Address to you (: I love you.

so hey, I know i said i love you, yes it's absolutely true. (: and since we're going this way. I just gotta say thank you. for everything. For every moment that we spent together. for being there for me whenever i needed someone to be there. For taking care of me when I was sick and worrying me for what I did to hurt myself. This is the first time, I felt something like this for someone. so thank you so much from the bottom of my heart  (: I'm sorry for breaking your heart again and again with the words I said & the things I did. If I can take it all back and do it all over again, I would. I would go back to 1 Nov and start all over again. I meant what i said, I'll never forget you & that I love you. So thank you (: I hope we'll still be friends at some point (: Forgive me for everything I did that hurt you.

Que puedo hacer esto (: te prometo que nunca te haría daño de nuevo (: Te amo
From now in I'll never ever do anything to hurt you ever again. I'm sorry for doing the things that hurts you.


LOVE
ERICA.

Here we go...

Handshake, try to keep them steady, won't break, you've been getting ready,  here we go, it's time to say goodbye. You've got a lot up on your shoulders. Not quite sure just where you're going. But you know it's gone be quite a ride. You know with every twist, turn, crash and burn, that you're gonna reach the other side. You will do things you never dreamed of. You're gonna find a few new friends. Get to explore the worlds of wonder. Where the magic never ends. Time to go out and make your moment. Make a few memories on the way. Life is unfolding it's happening right before your eyes.

Inside you feel the fire blazing. Outside you are so amazing. Take a breath and soak in all the sides. Danger and fear are gonna test you. Still you are coming to the rescue. Rain or shine you won't give up the fight. It doesn't matter how long how far, there are miracles along the way. Might be surprised, by the strength you're gonna find inside your heart.

6/1 Class Gathering

It Begins and it ends.

So here we go...
It started just not long ago. But I guess it ended sooner that what i expected. I though something would change into a better one. I know yesterday I wasn't feeling that much effect on it. But I think it starts to have an effects now. why? Shouldn't it be the other way around?
I guess being excluded isn't what I wanted. That feels really bad, to get excluded. I'm okay with what u did ( i think) but just don't start excluding me out.
Im feeling a fever coming my way soon. It's comes and goes. wth! I cant get sick again.. This isn't my time... All the not so good stuff coming at the same time. Reality. Maybe next year it'll feel much worse. Which makes this year and this feeling a practice for what's to come.
I think it's gonna get draggy from here on. Hope I can cope with it all.

NEWS NEWS

WOOHOO! IM EXCITED FOR THIS SUNDAY!
CLASS GATHERING FOR 6/1 :D 
Hmm...other than that... there's nothing much
I know IM GOING TO BALI for christmas.
Hmm... Much photos gonna be taken from this sunday event
maybe some from tmr when we have some school promotion thing . Kinda fun I think. Not really sure what we're gonna do. But yea. Maybe we'll drop by the new school. It may look shocking or it already is. Such ugly colours for the building man. anyway :D
ciao ciao :D
till next time.  ( like tmr ) hahaha
LOVE
ERICA

Photos from the holiday so far ...

Dedicated to you.

Dear you.

I hope you're alright. Like seriously, Im not sure what's up with you. Whatever it is I really truly hope it nothing. Cause u're seriously making me worried. Don't worry about tht first. Anyway, please take care alright. Seriously I'm sorry if it's cause of me & sorry I can't do anything to help you. :( HOPE HOPE HOPE WISH WISH WISH WISH that you're gonna be alright any time soon. like SOON. I take back everything I say abt you. cause clearly I misjudge you and clearly idk what's going on with you. sorry! for misunderstanding you. Please get better & be okay again. ily&imy. Get better asap! ( serisouly) (: haha

Love E.

Holiday much?

Hey'all! 
I'm being sick again now. seriously I have low anti bodies. -.- But whatever. I mean there's like thousand & million reason why I'm always getting sick these days. But i wonder why others dont get sick. 
So some of the reasons are packed schedule & waking up early during holidays. I think my body just have it's time. I think it knows when holiday is. (: seriously. haha how cool is that? :D LOL. hate holidays when there's so many sch stuff... why called it holiday dude. 
So anyway for now Im just enjoying my resting time. (: Like seriously I need a break. (:


"If anyone asks, I'll tell them we just grew apart Yeah what do I care If they believe me or not Whenever I feel Your memory is breaking my heart I'll pretend I'm okay with it all Act like there's nothing wrong I'm talking in circles I'm lying, they know it Why won't this just all go away Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? Is this as hard as it gets? "

2 weeks Of holiday

Well Hello again.

So here it goes, it's been 2 weeks since the holiday started and Im not sure whether it's good or not. Yes of course when people asked me the first thing I'll say, ' yes it's great' cause I remember the good memories of the holiday. But how am I gonna keep doing this for the rest of the holiday? Is this even a holiday? It doesn't even feel like it's a holiday anymore.
Yes it's my problem & my fault, that I have so many things everyday. Remedial non stop and tuitions and other things. nvm... im just whining... I just thought since i've worked hard then should I deserve a break or sth like that. Yea. I hope someday i'll get a real holiday. Free. Without any remedial and stuff. Plus I know the teacher's gonna say, 'it's for ur own good' or ' then don't go'. That is so not helping. Idk WHY they CALLED it HOLIDAY? :(
Everyone's gonna tell me the same thing, maybe it's just me being busy for myself, I made myself busy. BUT why other friends that I have dont have to worry about so much things? Like ...
I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL DURING HOLIDAY! WHY THEY CALL IT HOLIDAY WHEN WE HAVE TO GO BACK THERE? CAN'T ANYONE GIVE ME A BREAK?! IT'S SO ANNOYING. STOP REMEDIAL!
I WISH I CAN JUST DO WHATEVER I WANT BE LAZY AND FEEL LIKE IT'S HOLIDAY EVERDAY DURING HOLIDAY. & BE FREE WHEN FRIENDS ASKED ME OUT TO GO WATCH MOVIE, PLAY BOWLING & ALL THE FUN THINGS.

people will say:  ' then don't go'
I cannot just go cause:
1. I cannot bare to disappoint them, the teachers & coach.
2. Im scared that I will loose out, which I will actually when I skipped remedial.
etc..

My life seems so boring. Which it is ...

Thursday Night of Fashion

Hey peeps!
I'm so totally loving GLEE again! I'm serious! The soundtracks are just so awesome! I like the main lead voices. So Strong! (: anyway... Did nothing today except just clean my room, tuition & goes out awhile to meet my dear friend. Right now i'm watching America's next top model! I love the show. Thursday is like the  fashion night!
Hmmm, so im kinda worried now that he's not feeling tht well. I really hope he's not sick. Seriously, tht ain't funny at all. :( Get well soon!! imy. PS: All the best for Saturday. I really hope it's nothing.
Anyway, Tomorrow I'm gonna have chinese remedial & Basketball training. I'm so not going for Councillor meeting cause it clash with chinese remedial. Its our last lesson with Mdm Low.. :( huhuhu... Who's gonna teach me next year?  :(
anyway gtg. Love ya.(:

First week of Holiday '09

Gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day To turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say, gotta live like we're dying.

PEEP! Glee turn out to be a super nice show. Their soundtrack is out and the song they sang was nice!! I mean they have a good voice! Especially the lead. :D
ohoh, now we're HAVING HOLIDAY!!
BUT I have REMEDIALS & STUFF related to SCHOOL almost everyday!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.....!!!!!
IT'S KILLING ME. IT'S KILLING ME. IT'S KILLING ME.
so yea my school's moving and people are packing stuff. awww. re-live the moment of sec 1 years. I miss sec 1 years. I cant believe 3 years has passed so freaking fast! I'll miss those moments. We practically watched each one of us grow up. How sweet... :D
Hey people of 1E1('07) 2E1 ('08) 3Es & who ever in my class... I have ur pictures from sec 1. You guys look so cuteeee! :D hahah.. I'll surprise u during graduation next year. hahha :D LOL... (:

Sec 3 Sports Carnival Day!!

Heya!
Today was so fun! There's like awesomegames today!
I played Captainball for my Class! Honestly it is a tough game (:
But it's really nice! :D i mean honestly e game kinda hard.
So yea! pictures on facebook! :D heheh.
After the long hard game and then I went home and change, prepare and get ready for basketball!
Next I went for basketball training. :D It was tiring and worth it! :D Nice (:
After the training I meet my dearest friend & walk home.
PS: watching GLEE right now! It's actually kinda awesome! Didnt thought that it was a nice tv series. :D
hahaha! It's actually very touching (: hehe! & Awesome singing!! :D
xoxo!

E last tuesday of the Schooll year.

Hello!
Well this is the last week of the SCHOOL! There's gonna be sports day on the wednesday ofr sec 3! woo pee! currently I'm watching 'Accidentally Married' It's damn funny! hahah :D LOL
very nice story though about true love and such (: hehe. + im waiting for my freind now to text me now... pfft! Hmm, I wonder what's happening to him.. have fun playing cathing haha :D LOL.
SO... On monday we had to do pot/ clay for the new pond of the new school! It's awesome! I mean apart from the time that we have to spent in the art room doing it. Everything else was qutite alright. (: Plus we had a Asian Artist, awesome! Specials.
Hmm.. still waiting... what is he doing man! :P
So anyway same thing happen for today there's making pot and clay. haha :D It's fun! :D But at some point it gets boring. I mean honestly knowing that some people wouldnt liked it. So yea. It's just boring at first but appriciate it in the end. (: hehe :D
hmmm... so later in the afternoon I'm gonna be having piano lesson... hmm, tired! Well i guess it's alright. (: As long as I remember I have been bearing with all that so yea (:

Last day of the week. (last 2 week of sch)

Hey'all!!!
Damn today's awesome! as in FUN! Hmm... apart from the excitement after school! I was excited in school too! finally get the final results for every subject! Im relieved! phew phew!!
so here it is:

CHINESE paper 1: 28/70     E8 ( 40% )
                 Paper 2: 12/70      F9 (17.14%)
        Overall Mark : 40/140    F9 (28.6%)

MATH   Paper 1: 54/60       A1 (90%)
              Paper 2: 48/60       A1 (80%)
     Overall mark: 102/120    A1 (85%)
Overall whole year: 83%      A1

BIOLOGY : 43/50             A1 (86%)
PHYSICS:  35/50               A1 (70%)
Combi Science : 77%         A1

ART Course Work:    54/60   
                    Final :      32/50
                    Total:       86%     A1

LITERATURE Paper 1:  32/50
                        Paper 2: 31/50 
                         Total : 63/100     B4

GEOGRAPHY: 35/50           A2 (70%)

ENGLISH:  Paper 1: 39/60     B3 (65%)
                   Paper 2: 27/59     C6 (54%) 
           overall total  : 60.6        B4

Hmm... so today, my stomach is killing me! ( DRAMA!) haha. but it's kinda hurt once in awhile. Gonna need to keep my good ingestion regular. haha or else someone's gonna kill me. :P you know who you are :P
hahah! ah well. I hung out again with my friends at night, (: FUN FUN.. SNOOPY is so cute! ( vivian's dog) hahha. So im gonna be sleep now. tired & gonna be hanging out again tmr & bball training (:
alrighty then nite nite (:
XOXO. :D

Results Day

Hey all peeps. (: hope you guys have a pleasant day. :D Well for some of us aren't tht pleasant. But oh well sometimes in our life things goes up and down right? At a point it maybe at the climax where everything is going so well, then the next second you maybe at the bottom part of the life graph, where you will feel horrible and sad.
Well tht's what life is ALL about isnt it? The ups& the downs. (: We have to face it, one way or another.
like Diyanah said: the things that doesnt kill you, make you stronger. (: yea and tht's gonna be what i will think of whenever im sad.

Well today as a results day, I've received Math & Chinese so far. (:
Math Paper 1:  54/60
         paper 2: 48/60
overall marks for whole year: 83%

Chinese paper 1: 28/70 - E8 ( woopee! improvement from F9)
            paper 2:  12/70
overall marks:  idk, i dont care. should be F9

bad news: there's like 4 ppl retaining from my class... and freaking wtfreak scared
.cause it's said to be someone tht pass everything except english. :( tht could be me!!
I'm seriously gonna pray that sth miracle can happen tht they decided to make everything ok.
that no one would be retaining & tht they're given a second chance.

Cant wait to receive the rest of my papers!!! :D
ahhh! so fun! oh oh, today's achievement day! and yea i finally get my book "seven deadly sins: greed"
Awesome! hahha..
oh oh! another thing... deeana, viv & diy just told me there's like 2 different ways of holding hands & they both mean different thing.  which made me think of it over and over again!!! it's driving me crazy. pfft! but cool new discoveries. :P haha. && ms fernandez just told us about the sexy physics. I think it's the anatomy physics about the truth in life. DAMN AWESOME! I seriously wanna hear more abt it! so FREAKING INTERESTING! This might actually make me LOVE PHYSICS MORE. :D :P hhaha

So... yesterday was fun! I had bowling session with YX & ASHHY! FUN MAN! & YX won the first round while I won the 2nd round. hahah :D so apart from that. I went home like around 8? Then i walked home with my dearest friend. (: SO fun! :D & it's been great and the whole thing is very sweet. ILY! :D

ADVICE TO GUYS: ( just from my POV)
seriously guys, you may think that some details to u is not important, but if u're really open up and share the things with ur friends/ someone u trust/ ur dearest ones, you might actually make them feel more closer to you. Because to girls, these details is very important. & by sharing ur thoughts it make them feel special that you actually wanna share and be open to that girl. They are suppose to be someone that u trust the most even if you're feeling low, u know tht u can count on them anytime. They might be your best friend, or who ever it might be. Hmmm... learn to see things from the other persons' eyes. Understand what they feel and know them form the heart. Because things are not always what it seems. - the end (for now)
PS: guys please, speak from your heart. U dont have to hide anything if they're someone u trust. They will not judge you, because they are someone that would understand u, if u tell them.

Sometimes the things I did may hurt the other person & I will feel really guily about it.
Sometimes Idk what am i suppose to do because im put in the middle of sth, by making a decision that's important or sth.
Sometimes even if I feel really bad and I dont know what else to do, I just go to sleep and sleep on it. hoping that it will all go away and go back to the way it used to be.

So this next lines are for you. I will always try my best to make you happy and cheer you up when u're down. Even if at tht moment I feel sad as well abt sth else. For now it seems that you're some of the things i care abt the most. But even if I have to feel even worse to make you happy and be delightful like the way u used to, I'll do it.Although as u know, most of the time i fail to do it, cause the things i did doesnt seems to help you. So usually if i'm feeling really bad i'll just shed some tears. I know i promise you tht i wont cry, but sometimes things get out of hand. & u know that I will always tell you what I feel, what I think & everything. But I really need you to do the same. Just tell me whatever things u're feeling so I can understand you more. :) that's all for now ily always. (:

SO BYE PEEPS!
XOXO

Bowling day + Slacking :P

So yesterday, i spent most of my days @ VIVIAN'S HOUSE! haha
we played guitar hero, racing and many other game which i cant win AT ALL. -.-  :(
shitty, damn guitar hero is hard.
 seriously my hand coordination and brain not tht good at those kind of games
hahha. well GOOD JOB people! you guys ruled GUITAR HERO hahaha :D
THANK YOU GUYS for the fun day yesterday!
totally LOVED IT!
 the BEST slacking day EVER. hahha!

PS: to who it may concern. please choose the right path. take a chance and be responsible to take the punishment for what you have done. If you had made a mistake, dont continue making the same mistake, take a turn and go to the right path. I hope you dont make it harder than it have to be.
Physical pain is less pain than emotional pain. I wish you all the best, and i'll pray for you. That you'll be alright. all the best. (:

PSS: THANK YOU SO MUCH, you know who you are, dearest friend, for being there for me & understanding what i was facing. you waited for me and i really appriciate it :D ily always :D

SO anyway! im gonna be going to go for a bowling session with Yong Xun, Yan Qing, Ashhy & Azie! FUN FUN FUN otw! Damn this is gonna be a lot of fun!!

Ice skating PHOTOS!

ICE SKATING with FRIENDS! freaking AWESOME!

WOOPEE!!!
ice skating yesterday was freaking damn fun man!
hahha.. Let me have the pleasure of naming those who FELL ON ICE hahah.
1. Janson
2. Boon Song - Deon
3. Kai Leong
4. NOel
5. CHristopher!
6. ROBIN
hmm.. who else... HHAHA wel congrats guys for FALLING ON ICE performance hahha
justtt kidding. :D really had fun with you guys man.
thank you so much :D hehe. :D
we shall go again during DECEMBER HOLIDAYS ,we can ask more people to go :D hehe.
soo, after the whole ice skating, we had dinner @ YISHUN SAKE SUSHI! & i ate SALMON DON. damn nice SALMON!! yummy yummy! hehhe.
so after that i went to sembawang to meet my dearest friend & walk home together (:
WELL IT'S FREAKING AWESOME DAY! :D
ps: ppl! stop fighting man. :D just let go. you have to learn to let go of grudges (: try it! it's a good therapy! :D

Outing wit churchies PHOTOS