Shopping day

Hey'all (:

Today was kinda great (: Love the shopping time @ mangga dua :p haha. I've got a bag, few shirts and jeans.

 Anyway, along the way, i was looking at the side of the road, there's like so many houses, roads and bridges that's unattended. I mean there's like so many mess in here. There's building that was left over by the riots dk how many years ago. If I'm not wrong it was almost 10 years ago & the building was still there. With no one taking care of it and doing business in it.

There's so many big drainage but all of them have black water and super polluted water flowing through it. Since we have so many people and alot of jobless people, why not hire them and make a workforce? why not use the people resources to clean and improve the country, i know it can't be just that simple as saying than doing it but if no one tries to do it or start it, who's gonna start.

 Some of the things that's build here are like half done and half way. What happen to e money tht was suppose to be used on building the things? go to your own pocket. wth! Money can't be eaten if u haven't realise that. If you don't start improving everything and cleaning things, global warming can be faster than you thought.

 i don't know what going through my mind, what happen when i was with you, i was just  really happy. When i was with you, nothing else seems to matter. Even at one point, I don't even care what other people might think. I was just glad to be with you. My friends told me, that he must have been something, cause it made me happier that I  had ever been in the whle 3 years that she known me. Everything that happen between them, I'll never forgets it, it was a nice memory to keep. Even though you may not look at it that way, not anymore. but I'm grateful for everything that you have given me. (: imy&ily. sorry i made u go through the pain.

Sleepover and Food all day

So... Yea tonight I'll be sleeping at my cousin's house. soo quiet and peaceful.
Had a long day today. Filled with different kinda\s of food. :P pfft! Ymmy.
Lunch @ Marche and Dinner @ Soto.. (:
Sweetniblets... i dont even exercise here. LIKE SERIOUSLY. super lazy. Probably once I get to Bali I'll run by the beach in the morning. (: of course i wanna try the horse riding too :D hehhe.
alrighty then can't wait.

imy

Erica

Soo.. Holiday!

Okayy... I'm like watching this indonesian tv show. It's like so sad.

There's so many people that doesn't have a proper house and all. they're like struggling and everything. kay i feel so blessed right now. Shouldn't have complained abt so many stuff and be grateful for what i have. (:

Well my sister is on her way to australia for holiday. Like freaking nice. She have some trip that she joined with her ever lasting best friend - thania. (: Hope they have fun.:D they better take loads of pictures.(: I probably gonna miss her complains hahah :D Hope she finally had some fun, like how I always feel when I kept traveling. I wonder where I'd like to stay in the future. I dont think I wanna stay in Jakarta. I do love the things here & my family is  here. Idk whether I wanna stay in Singapore, although most of my friends now are from there and since i've stayed there, I had so many opportunities and I've found what I wanted to be.(:  There's so many memories there I guess. I've experienced so many thing in singapore. Like practically my teenage life here. It's so freaking amazing. (: and yea I love it! :D

SO anyway.... I've cut my hair... yesterday (: It's short. But probably it's not tht short. whatever hahah :D But yea, I  liked it (:(:

imissu

ERICA (:

This is All i've got.

I'm freaking serious missed the book. I miss my friends. I miss everything that I used to have. I miss you for freaking goodness sake.

Did I said sth stupid? there goes one mistake. Did I bore you with my problems? I'm sorry for being selfish. This is all i've got, This is all that i'm not. It doesn't matter who we are, each one of us have our moments.Why can't I just let it go? This is all the things that doesn't make sense, your expectations, your explanations. It made me all confuse. Every word that you told me, I can't forget it. It just keep running around my head.

When I read the pass msges/ chat log, I wish it hadn't turn out this way.I wish it turned out to be a much better things. I dont know what to do. We stay together was the promise we made. But suddenly it's not so clear when i'm being pulled both ways.It's breaking my heart, it's impossible to choose. What if I don't try , what if i do? I thought u said it was gonna be alright, and it's gonna be easy. I wanna go back. I don't want it to be this way. Not like this.

Performance by AMKSS

Fashion Project!

HEY'ALL !
I'm so totally on for fashion project in order for me to get into NAFA! wooo!
I can let go now (: hehe. just gotta handle the nightmare a little. (: Of course I hope we're still friends & you're not angry at me anymore. Sorry abt what I said. I was reckless. :p so yea.
UHH!
I'm gonna go off 17 Dec. I never thought i'll be so glad leaving this Island for a holiday @ paradise for now (; I need to get away for now(: Ironic i told you not to run away, but I feel like running away right now (:
So anyway yes I'm SORRY! :D Hope you'll forgive me :D I've accepted everything now (: Gonna move on.
NEXT YEAR
I have to be damn discipline man. I cannot have any hw left out or I wont have time to do them. :D so yea :D That's all for now (:
BUH-BYE. ;D

Final Address to you (: I love you.

so hey, I know i said i love you, yes it's absolutely true. (: and since we're going this way. I just gotta say thank you. for everything. For every moment that we spent together. for being there for me whenever i needed someone to be there. For taking care of me when I was sick and worrying me for what I did to hurt myself. This is the first time, I felt something like this for someone. so thank you so much from the bottom of my heart  (: I'm sorry for breaking your heart again and again with the words I said & the things I did. If I can take it all back and do it all over again, I would. I would go back to 1 Nov and start all over again. I meant what i said, I'll never forget you & that I love you. So thank you (: I hope we'll still be friends at some point (: Forgive me for everything I did that hurt you.

Que puedo hacer esto (: te prometo que nunca te haría daño de nuevo (: Te amo
From now in I'll never ever do anything to hurt you ever again. I'm sorry for doing the things that hurts you.


LOVE
ERICA.

Here we go...

Handshake, try to keep them steady, won't break, you've been getting ready,  here we go, it's time to say goodbye. You've got a lot up on your shoulders. Not quite sure just where you're going. But you know it's gone be quite a ride. You know with every twist, turn, crash and burn, that you're gonna reach the other side. You will do things you never dreamed of. You're gonna find a few new friends. Get to explore the worlds of wonder. Where the magic never ends. Time to go out and make your moment. Make a few memories on the way. Life is unfolding it's happening right before your eyes.

Inside you feel the fire blazing. Outside you are so amazing. Take a breath and soak in all the sides. Danger and fear are gonna test you. Still you are coming to the rescue. Rain or shine you won't give up the fight. It doesn't matter how long how far, there are miracles along the way. Might be surprised, by the strength you're gonna find inside your heart.

6/1 Class Gathering

It Begins and it ends.

So here we go...
It started just not long ago. But I guess it ended sooner that what i expected. I though something would change into a better one. I know yesterday I wasn't feeling that much effect on it. But I think it starts to have an effects now. why? Shouldn't it be the other way around?
I guess being excluded isn't what I wanted. That feels really bad, to get excluded. I'm okay with what u did ( i think) but just don't start excluding me out.
Im feeling a fever coming my way soon. It's comes and goes. wth! I cant get sick again.. This isn't my time... All the not so good stuff coming at the same time. Reality. Maybe next year it'll feel much worse. Which makes this year and this feeling a practice for what's to come.
I think it's gonna get draggy from here on. Hope I can cope with it all.