Daily exam life

SO it's almost finished. 1 more paper and I'm free-er. At least for now. Then I'd have one less thing to worry and stressed about. 

Can't wait till june even though it's not gonna be a real holiday. But at least it's called holiday. 

Getting the Truth. The Whole truth nothing but the truth.

How does it all come to this... I wish I knew to. I wouldn't have thought my life would be this complicated. I wish my life was simple and easy. Some people seems to have it easy.

Somestimes...

I wish I knew who you really are. 

I thought I knew. But i was wrong.

I wish I hadn't meet you. 

I wish it all hadn't turn out this way.

I wish I can have you back.

I wish I knew whether the person I knew back then, is the person I know now.

I wonder are you e same person i've been talking to for the last 2 years. 

I wonder if you're still there.

I wonder if you're telling me the truth.

I wonder what are you doing.

I wonder where are you.

Why can't you tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

is it me or it's you. I've been questioning myself all these while what you mean to me? What am I to you.

The things that happen, is really making me feel like I could just disappear into thin air and just know everything.. even it burst my heart into pieces. 

cause it doesn't matter anymore. you've torn it into pieces before.

What's up with the weather?

Does weather affects people that badly?

Seriously idk whether its because of the hot day or sth. But it's like its hot and it made me very very angry and pissed and frustrated all the time! Especially with my mom and sis and family ... strangely friends don't made me angry tht much.

I think its the way they say things or sth. It like just made me frustrated sometimes. My mom's like do this do that , clean here and there. Its really getting annoying. I mean since they've write the duties already. ugh. i dont feel like explaining. Whatever.

In the midst of MYE (PRELIM 1) right now. I wonder how it all gonna work out. I studying and stress is filling my head. I hope it'll go away. 

When in Italy

Whatever it is...

Have u ever felt like you're done and finished with that one thing but deep down inside you still have a little spark of hope? Like even whenever u thought that u're done , there's still so many things that u cared abt deep down inside.
School's been tough and life is tougher. There's so many things to fight for in this life. Start sth new and some things ended. I have so many things going through my mind but i'm not sure how to put it in words.
Just not long ago, i realise that most of the friendship can end that easily. I attended the leadership program and met some friends there. but i realise we have our division of friends. and unless we get to know them well enough, they'll not change their pov and ey will not change out mindset within 1 week.
I've been so many graduation and ending to so many things. Church classes end and we said to each other at tht point of time, that we'll still be contacting with each other, but in the end it's so rare that we all talk. same story every time.
I'm afraid that secondary school friends might turn out to be like that again & i really believe that sec sch friends are the one that's gonna stay the longest, it's where u meet ur true friends. not only sec sch, pri schools too. but poly & uni, it's all abt getting the job done and competition. it's not gonna be the same anymore.
It's so hard to face reality.
I guess i will realise not to ever take advantage of anything that's given to me.

Words still left unsaid

You hurt me before,
But I won't let that happen anymore
The way you made me feel
The pain was so unreal
This thing that I can't ignore
Left me cryin as you shut that door


You don't even care,
So don't apologize don't even dare
You broke my heart in two
I thought our love was true
These feelings of despair
Like no other can compare

And you said those words so unforgiving
And that mistake I won't be reliving

Cause there's everything and anything
And all these things and all these words
That get stuck in my head
And even though it's just for fun, I don't want to be the one
Not another tear will I shed,
Cause I wish those words were left unsaid

And not this time, and not this place
And that mistake I won't be reliving

Semi - Finals Basketball Girls WON YTSS

YEAY! FINALLY WE WON! 

after 4 YEARS! you girls really had worked hard for it and I'm so proud of you all :D 

hehhe. CONGRATULATIONS! :D

So today I messed up quite a number of things. I really need to get hold of myself.

Before I changed into some horrible, apathetic person. 

huh... I'm sooo deprived. 

I'm sorry guys that I've offended you or hurt you in anyway. 

I'll shut my mouth next time. 

I'm really glad to have you all as my friends. 

Sorry for taking you guys for granted. 

I LOVE U ALL (: 

have you ever thought of the past and thinking back now, 

that it all happen so fast and that u can't believe it happened.

for better or for worse. 

It was an experienced that changed your life or whatever. 

Probably a mistake or a choice that you made, 

that made u ended up where you are now. 

Well what THIS whole thing about was, 

just simply, it amused me what i've been through

How far have i've gone to reach where I am today.

I guess there's ups and downs, 

it changed me to a different kind of person. 

good or bad. 

I'm gonna trust my heart and follow it. 

I'm glad I have everyone around me to be there and guide me. 

Friends and family. THANK YOU 

I LOVE YOU!