After Almost A year of Post

So its almost been a year. SO much things has happened, I shall spare you all the drama. Too much. Anyway now I dont really use blog anymore, moved on to Tumblr. there's a reason why, but its a secret. If i tell ya, i might have to kill you. haha. So I've done my O's by now, gone through hard times in Singapore for the last couple of months. good times & bad times, good memories. & currently waiting for school to starts in JULY. Can't wait seriously. Of course I am having fun here @ Jakarta. Putting my braces in 2/3 days.
Lets talk about tmr! I'm gonna go to a theme park in jakarta with a couple of friends. AWESOME-NESS cause i havent been there in 8 years i think and now i kinda think the themepark shrinks, or maybe i grew bigger, or maybe cause i've been to bigger themeparks and expect this one to be as big. Main point is that it isnt as big as i remembered it to be. Nevertheless, i think tmr's gonna be an awesome day. 

Although its been months

So its 3 months away from the prelim exam. 

Can't believe its coming so soon. I'm serious this year is very fast. I mean now its already the 7th months of the year. Its already been 8 months since the whole thing happened. It still feels like it just happen recently. This is ridiculous. Wish there's some way to pause the time for awhile. To just stop & let me think. 

Well I'm glad that Angela is here now. There's new member to the family of SG. hahaa. 

but anyway it was just really exciting. 

There's a whole new thing to get use to. Can't believe my elder cousin is already been here for over a year. 

crazyyy... apart from that, my class have been deciding on whether or not we should perform for teachers day. It would really be a lot of fun. :D 

I do miss him still. Idk why. Just lost a best friend that i spend most of my time with I guess. 

But i should be over it by now, but I haven't ... but whatever on that, who cares.

3 weeks ago had been awesome weekend. wedding of my oldest cousin! He's so Old already. 

hahhaa, I'm happy for him (: 

Daily exam life

SO it's almost finished. 1 more paper and I'm free-er. At least for now. Then I'd have one less thing to worry and stressed about. 

Can't wait till june even though it's not gonna be a real holiday. But at least it's called holiday. 

Getting the Truth. The Whole truth nothing but the truth.

How does it all come to this... I wish I knew to. I wouldn't have thought my life would be this complicated. I wish my life was simple and easy. Some people seems to have it easy.

Somestimes...

I wish I knew who you really are. 

I thought I knew. But i was wrong.

I wish I hadn't meet you. 

I wish it all hadn't turn out this way.

I wish I can have you back.

I wish I knew whether the person I knew back then, is the person I know now.

I wonder are you e same person i've been talking to for the last 2 years. 

I wonder if you're still there.

I wonder if you're telling me the truth.

I wonder what are you doing.

I wonder where are you.

Why can't you tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

is it me or it's you. I've been questioning myself all these while what you mean to me? What am I to you.

The things that happen, is really making me feel like I could just disappear into thin air and just know everything.. even it burst my heart into pieces. 

cause it doesn't matter anymore. you've torn it into pieces before.

What's up with the weather?

Does weather affects people that badly?

Seriously idk whether its because of the hot day or sth. But it's like its hot and it made me very very angry and pissed and frustrated all the time! Especially with my mom and sis and family ... strangely friends don't made me angry tht much.

I think its the way they say things or sth. It like just made me frustrated sometimes. My mom's like do this do that , clean here and there. Its really getting annoying. I mean since they've write the duties already. ugh. i dont feel like explaining. Whatever.

In the midst of MYE (PRELIM 1) right now. I wonder how it all gonna work out. I studying and stress is filling my head. I hope it'll go away. 

When in Italy

Whatever it is...

Have u ever felt like you're done and finished with that one thing but deep down inside you still have a little spark of hope? Like even whenever u thought that u're done , there's still so many things that u cared abt deep down inside.
School's been tough and life is tougher. There's so many things to fight for in this life. Start sth new and some things ended. I have so many things going through my mind but i'm not sure how to put it in words.
Just not long ago, i realise that most of the friendship can end that easily. I attended the leadership program and met some friends there. but i realise we have our division of friends. and unless we get to know them well enough, they'll not change their pov and ey will not change out mindset within 1 week.
I've been so many graduation and ending to so many things. Church classes end and we said to each other at tht point of time, that we'll still be contacting with each other, but in the end it's so rare that we all talk. same story every time.
I'm afraid that secondary school friends might turn out to be like that again & i really believe that sec sch friends are the one that's gonna stay the longest, it's where u meet ur true friends. not only sec sch, pri schools too. but poly & uni, it's all abt getting the job done and competition. it's not gonna be the same anymore.
It's so hard to face reality.
I guess i will realise not to ever take advantage of anything that's given to me.